A Million Thoughts

A million thoughts role through my head so many thoughts that I can’t even pinpoint one thought.  Just as soon as I think one thought my mind races toward another.  I feel various emotions run through my body.  I feel the urge to cry but what for.  But why should I need a reason.  There’s more, there is more, there is more to this world and we all know it.  I feel like I’m spinning in circles.  I feel like I’m being pulled in a million directions.  I must find the light.  I must find the peace within me.  Oh God, what do I do?  Show me the path and I will follow.  But…I realize there is no path.  I must blaze the path but in what direction?  Direction means nothing where I want to go.  Such inconceivable thoughts, where is the guidance?  Acceptance, acceptance of what is real and what is not.  My body is merely carrying my soul.  How can I use my body to develop my soul?   That is the important question.  Simplify, the word rings through my brain a thousand times, simplify.  I want to experience what most people fail to experience in a life time.  I want to live a hundred men’s lives in a day.  I feel held back, bogged down by the demands of society.  I must separate society from what is true.  Follow the path inside myself.  Shut society out, shut out society but that is not an option.  I need to learn to follow the true path while living immersed in a society.  I want to explore the depths of imagination.  Use my mind for the impossible, to its fullest extent.  Open my soul let it pour out.  Let my soul carry my body instead or my body carrying it.

I say to myself, let your soul carry your body.