A Million Thoughts

A million thoughts role through my head so many thoughts that I can’t even pinpoint one thought.  Just as soon as I think one thought my mind races toward another.  I feel various emotions run through my body.  I feel the urge to cry but what for.  But why should I need a reason.  There’s more, there is more, there is more to this world and we all know it.  I feel like I’m spinning in circles.  I feel like I’m being pulled in a million directions.  I must find the light.  I must find the peace within me.  Oh God, what do I do?  Show me the path and I will follow.  But…I realize there is no path.  I must blaze the path but in what direction?  Direction means nothing where I want to go.  Such inconceivable thoughts, where is the guidance?  Acceptance, acceptance of what is real and what is not.  My body is merely carrying my soul.  How can I use my body to develop my soul?   That is the important question.  Simplify, the word rings through my brain a thousand times, simplify.  I want to experience what most people fail to experience in a life time.  I want to live a hundred men’s lives in a day.  I feel held back, bogged down by the demands of society.  I must separate society from what is true.  Follow the path inside myself.  Shut society out, shut out society but that is not an option.  I need to learn to follow the true path while living immersed in a society.  I want to explore the depths of imagination.  Use my mind for the impossible, to its fullest extent.  Open my soul let it pour out.  Let my soul carry my body instead or my body carrying it.

I say to myself, let your soul carry your body.

Mystery Meat

They are all made of meat.  Some are short and fat and some are long and skinny.  Occasionally, you can find the most popular kind which is long and fat but they are quite rare.  When heated they expand.  Some people like them a light pinkish tan color while others like them black.  Anyway you choose hotdogs are all made of the same stuff.

Bree

On many occasions over the past few years we all told her, “It’s okay.  You can go now.”  Two days later she would be looking at us with a smile on her face asking for a jelly donut.  Her will was much stronger than her body and that is because of family and friends. 

My Mom told my grandmother, “Call me when you get there.”  I think my Mom was a little relieved when she didn’t get this call.  I mean can you imagine the cost of a collect call from heaven.  Bree did send a message.  The message was not through the phone or sent in a letter.  The message was sent in words…and I speak these words to you now. 

You need not worry

For I am safe now

Where I am

There is no pain

There is only peace and love

Go now and enjoy your life

I will see you

When your time has come

Bree gave us many gifts.  She gave us three years devoted to bringing our family closer again.  She has taught us how important family is and how everything else in this world just doesn’t mean as much to us anymore.  Most importantly she has left us with…Grace.  I have learned so much from her and I will never be the same.  Thank you, Bree.  Thank you for everything you have taught me.  I love you so very 

Oh, Those Many I Haves

Oh, those many I haves, give me smiles

I have oodles and oodles

Of so many pleasant things in piles

I even have two huge poodles

I have a big T.V. screen

With a huge satellite

It’s the biggest you’ve ever seen

And I watch it all day and all night

My loud stereo

Is as loud as it can go

How annoyed was my brother

With a pillow, his ears he did smother

Today is my birthday

I knew I would get it my way

A new video game is what I wanted to play

And that my friends would be able to stay

Clicking buttons and pressing a lever

It could have lasted all night

I’d have to say my parents are quite clever

To serve me a pizza slice when I wanted a bite

I was sad to see

But my friends had to leave

It’s O.K. I really had to pee

My nose ran but I wiped it on my sleeve

The glow of the computer caught my attention

When I looked

I was shocked

So many messages and no one gave a mention

Bobby, Suzie, Cindy and Mike

Had sent messages wondering where was I

Suzie had gotten a new bike

Bobby got a bigger T.V. than I

What was this I thought

It was my birthday.  It’s not fair

I couldn’t believe what their parents had bought

I knew I just couldn’t compare

The next day at school

My teacher passed back a paper

My mouth hung so low I thought I would drool

She looked at me with a “Grrr!” instead of a purr

I couldn’t believe the grade was an F

Apparently TTYL and TGIF

Weren’t what you would call a word

My Mom would sure have a bird

The letters I used on my cell phone

Never made words at all

Oh how my Mom would moan

I hoped my teacher wouldn’t make a call

When I arrived home in the afternoon

I knew I had at least an hour

Before my Mom would call me a buffoon

She was at the bakery kneading flour

I went straight for my T.V.

But found out there was no power

No electricity

No stereo, might as well stare at a flower

I was bored to tears

I didn’t know what to do

Pretty soon my worst fears

Oh, when’s my next paper due

There was a bike, I just realized

Covered in cob webs, it had never been used

I dusted it off and off I went

My legs burned with every turn

Man, I was spent

Less work, my muscles did yurn

Then there was Bobby, Suzie, Cindy and Mike

Each riding on a dusty old bike

Except for Suzie who had one brand new

For her birthday she got a canoe

Suzie had no T.V. No stereo

Her parents didn’t believe in the mumbo-jumbo

Hiking in nature was where it was at

I can say the same about where Suzie and I sat

She held my hand and said

Look at all I have got

Down to the pond she had me led

Water, trees, birds, and hills what a lot

All around spinning was my tired head

Even better was the kiss that I just got

Before I knew it, it was dinner time

Time to face my fears

I’d rather suck on a lime

I hoped it wouldn’t bring me to tears

My Mom was at the door waiting

One hand on her hip

And her mouth was frowning

Then she pointed with her finger tip

My teacher had called

Now, I was doomed

My Mom said how important was school

So forget about T.V. and don’t be a fool

I learned a my lesson that day

It’s not about the I haves, No way

It’s about parents that care

And education that’s fair

Or maybe it’s about Suzie and nature

All I know is I’m in love and only 10    

I just can’t wait to kiss her

Again!

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